Baby making and Taxes...

My chart is triphasic at the moment. There is some confusion about my last three temps because of sleep patterns. I am not sleeping until my normal wake up time. I have adjusted using the temp adjuster in Fertility Friend. I noted it in my chart.

Temping took some getting used to at first and now it is just second nature for me to wake up and put the thermometer in my mouth. The downfall is that being an obsessive person by nature, I am now obsessed with temping. I can't wait to go to sleep at night so that I can wake up and temp. I then input my information into FF and obsess about it. I pore over other charts similar to mine and freak out. It drives me crazy.

When it showed an implantation dip I was super excited. When it went triphasic, I became hopeful. That is a very bad thing for me. I am constantly having my hopes dashed. I usually don't ever get excited or hopeful about anything. I find it keeps me from being disappointed constantly. My FF analysis even has implantation signs that it analyzes. It told me my chart went triphasic on CD21. I hope my temps stay elevated. Nathan and I want a baby so bad. I had a small dip last night but Ibis and Redflag told me that it's not over to AF comes and that a small dip like that is nothing. I am expected to see AF on Sunday. I'm hoping I don't see her for a while. Monday is my test date. I have gone through quite a few pregnancy tests really hoping to see those two lines or that little plus sign. This is why I buy them 10 at a time from a website.

When I do anything I get obsessive about it. I mean absoloutely anything. For a long time it was dance. I wanted to be the best, dance with the best groups. I practiced all the time. I worry and stress about everything. I obsess over it until it just happens and there's nothing I can do about it. I analyze everything to death. Whether it's my feelings, temps, money, budgets...the list goes on. It's just how I am. I am constantly worried. Even when I appear calm, I am always thinking about how to safeguard against the most current problem.

On another note, I am also really excited to report, that I do not owe uncle sam this year! Woohoo! I was supposed to owe 5k and now I am getting back 3k. Hooray for tax professionals. I did my own taxes last year and I ended up owing. The same lady is going to amend my return to get more money back. There were a lot of things I did not claim last year. Nathan and I have already decided what we want to do with the money. We will be paying off debt and putting some in savings. After that we will take a little of it and spend it on ourselves.