Stressed

So this TTC thing is taking a toll on me. My bestie called me today and wanted to know if I wanted to go to Canyon Lake with her and her mom. I said sure. I hate leaving Nathan but I realize just how much I need a relaxing weekend. The thing is Candy, and Mama (candy's mom) and I all have the same interests. This weekend is going to be a quiet weekend, reading books, watching movies and sleeping. This sounds like just what I need. No housework, no taking care of Nate, just worrying about me. I called Nathan to let him know and he was excited for me. I got a little excited at the prospect of lounging by the pool with a good book. I have several I can read. I may even re read the twilight series.

Then I found out I may not be able to leave early like I thought I would. Work may get in the way. It's something that I actually have to do since Mom isn't here and she is normally the one who does it. I hope it can get done before we need to go. If not I will be staying behind instead of going to Canyon Lake. *sigh*

My temp went up slightly which is good. I want them to stay up. Today I feel like a crazy person. All I want to do is cry. I got choked up last night watching that 70s show! How pathetic is that?! I am so hormonal. It's worse than my normal weepy-ness (not a real word lol) that comes before my period. I am fighting back tears and other than not going to Canyon Lake and having TTC problems, everything is normal. I was weepy when I woke up this morning and nothing had even happened so I know it's not just wanting to get away and possibly not being able to.

I peed on another stick and it was negative. I did analyze other people's chart on fertility friend and some people didn't even get a positive until like 17 dpo. I'm holding out hope. I know I said I wouldn't but I can't help it. I'm trying to make myself believe it's already a failed cycle.